I haven't talked about what's been really going on around here, its depressing and I'm almost afraid of putting it out there and depressing someone else.
But, the latest scoop/gist:
This program that was supposed to save us and maw-maw not only took much longer than they had previously said they would on getting us help. Now, they've told us that she is not allowed back at their facility for the next 3 months. Um, EXCUSE ME?! They said "she's violent, not medicated. Wait about a month and try again". A month passes and we take her there again, she flipped out on everyone so they say "Don't bring her back here until she's been on medication for at least 3 months"
WHOA mother effer! Ok, so we ask them "What can we do about getting help UNTIL then?"
Nothing……
Nothing….
Now we are broke, stuck in a program USING us for their funding and NO HELP! ARE YOU FRICKING KIDDINGG MEEE?!
No, I do not joke about this. After realizing how screwed we all are from the neglect of the SAME people that swore they could handle this, the lack of time for jobs, the lack of energy to continue in this hell…grandpa reached his hand out and asked for help.
We've had several different programs come and interview maw-maw for their program and many have backed out!! So, this tells me that there is no help for us, for her, for anyone!
The other day, a state funded program stopped by with some "hopeful" news. Offering grandpa the ability to hire anyone to care for her and the state will pay them.
If this is the case, we will be ok. If not?
I WILL FREAK THE HELL OUT! Seriously! There is NO reason ANYONE should have to suffer the way we have!!! Why is this happening? Why don't we get help? UGH!
And let me tell you…maw-maw has been getting worse. She is on medication now and it hasn't done a whole lot. Now she's slower, slouches more and her ups and downs are more severe than before. Its impossible to live here. We have a total of 5 people and one dog…ONE of the five people having Alzheimer's has kept everyone else from having any freedom, space, friends, hobbies…everything about a "Life" has officially dissipated before our eyes. Oh, woe is me. I haven't felt like myself in over 2 years. Now the love of my life is experiencing exactly what I warned him about, he's handling it a lot better than I had originally expected, but depressed either way.
4 people stuck in the deepest, thickest mud and sinking fast.
If anyone has any suggestions or comments, please leave them below. Thank you
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