I need an out

I'm not sure why, but we got a letter in the mail last thursday or so. It said that medicaid dropped maw maw…
How fucking devastating. I'm too tired for this bullshit.
It was a domino effect, one thing right after another.
Smacking our faces before we get a chance to recover from the last blow.

I'm still confused, I have no idea what's going on. But, I've had it. I need an out, I need to breathe…

Then, last night I watched my hero dim with the realization that he can't do half as much as he used to.

Just when I thought I'd disappear, it got worse. Everything got heavier and harder. More and more unbelievable as each day zips by.

Go ahead, zaney, try and disappear now.
Life has a heavy hand on you, so what are you gonna do?
Your feet are cemented to the floor, your wrists shackled and your head swarmed.
Good luck on giving up.
You have no choice.
You have no voice.
You are what you are.
What you are is what I've made of you…
A little bitch.

Sincerely,
           LIFE.